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March 20, 2008

Wow. Just really enjoying this conference. For the last three years, as MC and AI, always being in a conference management role, preparing sessions and being stressed about the delivery. Somehow this conference feels special… different: the atmosphere, the conversations, the energy are keeping me present, connecting, enjoying, learning so many personal and practical things.

Today in the morning I had the opportunity to reflect on and express my stand. I was grateful for this time. Remembering the feelings that charge through your body when you are sharing what you care the most about with others – nervousness,.. excitement. Realizing that I haven’t expressed my full stand to others in some time… while I was speaking I was remembering all of who I am and want to be, and how important it is to share this more regularly! I nice reminder of how cool it is to be in a learning environment with others also obsessed with personal development …

While the day was in some ways also more functional, I am feeling inspired just thinking about the impact this APXPros and LDS family will have when their beautiful individual stands are realized, and when they continue to create relevant, needed change in our local communities around specific issues.

I wonder how everyone else is doing. If they have the same feelings of inner peace and empowerment that I am feeling. And I wonder what my next “aha” moment will be. :D

And the beat goes on....

March 18, 2008.

Yay! Sooooo excited about Japanese Night tonight! No, wait, focus: where am I right now and how am I feeling? Hm… A feeling a sense of peace and comfort, of being home. I have this sense of familiarity being here with the AP family at this point in my journey… it feels so different from my feelings of awe and wonder of my first months of this experience, everything always feeling new and surprising.

In terms of the experience of this conference for the whole, it is just beginning. Yesterday definitely felt like that honeymoon period of these new relationships we are forming. A constant sense of euphoria. Today we have begun heavier sessions… bringing us to the dual role of this conference to live 2010 and inspiring us individually to be who we are meant to be.

I see this emerging. Today during a session, Florent from China had shared while reviewing exchange data, that usually he approaches the MC for questions, but actually with this knowledge, he himself, and his LC, “can invent the future” they want for their community. I had forgotten how interlinked these two things are 2010 and rockstar individuals. Working towards this 2010 vision empowering individuals and inspired as the only way to realize our vision. Wow. It’s so simple! Okay… its been an intense day, that is enough deep thoughts for now… time for some evening fun!

A new journey begins... weeeeee!

Day one of AP XPros and LDS. I cannot believe it is here and has begun! For the last week, challenges sleeping – my mind racing with excitement, anxiety, visions of the conference every night as I fall asleep, every morning from the moment I wake up.

We have all come so far …this year! – awakening awareness and belief in our ability to shine as a GN and as individuals. As a family, we are working together more. In regards to performance we are breaking records. Still… there is something clouding this beautiful reality…

The moments of… shall we call it, shame, of spending so much time in a non-profit organization, a foreign concept to our parents in this environment. The lack of people willing to run for full-time MC positions because there is it seems to lack prestige in the eyes of others, or because we are not positioned strongly enough in our market. Why can’t we just be proud of who we are and what we believe in?

I have so many ideas and images of where we are and where we are going, but I look forward to the image being crafted and built together in the coming days. What will the next days bring? What will emerge? What future will we invent?

I don’t know... but I know I am grateful for this moment, for this opportunity I have as a member in AIESEC, to challenge myself, and others…to be able to reflect on and embody my purpose.