True CV
Jetlagged, random ideas in my mind.
I was reminiscing about really positive happy times in my life, not longingly, just smiling. Then I thought - you know, moments like that are really things I am proud of.
Then I thought, hey! Its funny how we spend so much time bringing clarity and eloquence to our professional accomplishments in resumes/CVs, but rarely for the things we are deep deep proud of.
THEN I thought, sheesh. That would be so awks for people to know about those types of things. It was already challenging enough last year, for example, when Gabiza made each of us (AI0708) stand up in front of the team and say what we have accomplished confidently, and those were mostly professional accomplishments, or things about sports, at least. Then I thought - sheesh, that's kind of sad that I bet a lot of people, including myself, would really be so shy to allow ourselves to be proud of doing good things. Then I thought about how those "25 random facts" types stuffs seem like the main kind of alternate outlets for reflecting and saying things that you really think are neat.
Us Gen Ys are funnies. I guess at least its good its happening in some shape or form.
I think clarity on these moments would definitely be valuable. Personally, along the same frame of "positive leadership", its good to know in which situations or environments you are shining, thriving. Yes of course what you have done is not exactly who you are, but this consciousness of what drives you would contribute to your sense of self. And interpersonally it would add a new dynamic for how people connect, judge, or what have you, than just what you do at work or even what your hobbies are.
Eureka, yet another fun self-concocted self-awareness reflection thinger! Less talk, more do. What would be some of the things on my true CV?
- making the credits of a film about cancer played at an independent film festival just for stopping in on a patient and having down to earth fun talk while playing connect four and other silly kids games, while volunteering on the oncology ward at Mott's Children Hospital - he ended up shooting a documentary about his experience. perhaps sticks out more in my mind since he passed away some months after I attended this screening :(
- every time I learn from and facilitate the privilege walk - the reactions of individuals who had an a-ha and hearing when its continued
- sitting down with someone at IPM06 who was clearly feeling out and just smiling and being normal and that person thanking me, letting me know they appreciated it and felt more confident and "in" at end of conf. yay inclusiveness (specific instance, not a general one)
- finding out a friend of mine was in the midst of a year or nomading and had no camera, heading straight to best buy and buying one, and shipping it to her under the pretense that she thought and still thinks it was an old camera one of my mom's church friends didn't need (yay that she doesn't know my blog site, hehe)
Jes. That would be part of it. Thinking as a faci: how did it feel to write those things knowing I'd click "publish post" after? Well, quite awks. I had a lot of things in my mind but when I started typing I felt a bit shy about writing them out and careful about how I wrote them to make sure I didn't seem like a conceited self righteous freak of nature, because somehow being happy for being nice feels super bad, but being proud about increasing performance of an org is super ok.
Makes me think of the concept of "closeting". Of the ways that we can feel ashamed about parts of who we are and keep them in the dark. Are we closeting goodness?!? Jes, of course, it would be strange to go around telling people: I'm a good person! Look at me! LOOK! Seems to defeat the purpose of having done the nice deed. And even to walk around in your head humming "damn it feels good to be a gansta" and thinking: wowww, I am the shittttt. But I do sometimes even feel bad for even feeling happy about myself when I do something nice. Sounds deranged, but don't put it past me and my outrageous self critical guilt complex! So yes, I reckon I'll think a bit more about this and also will try to remember this question in my mind next time I'm talking to someone and feel compelled to say, "so what do you do?", or, "some weather we've got, eh?" :)
I was reminiscing about really positive happy times in my life, not longingly, just smiling. Then I thought - you know, moments like that are really things I am proud of.
Then I thought, hey! Its funny how we spend so much time bringing clarity and eloquence to our professional accomplishments in resumes/CVs, but rarely for the things we are deep deep proud of.
THEN I thought, sheesh. That would be so awks for people to know about those types of things. It was already challenging enough last year, for example, when Gabiza made each of us (AI0708) stand up in front of the team and say what we have accomplished confidently, and those were mostly professional accomplishments, or things about sports, at least. Then I thought - sheesh, that's kind of sad that I bet a lot of people, including myself, would really be so shy to allow ourselves to be proud of doing good things. Then I thought about how those "25 random facts" types stuffs seem like the main kind of alternate outlets for reflecting and saying things that you really think are neat.
Us Gen Ys are funnies. I guess at least its good its happening in some shape or form.
I think clarity on these moments would definitely be valuable. Personally, along the same frame of "positive leadership", its good to know in which situations or environments you are shining, thriving. Yes of course what you have done is not exactly who you are, but this consciousness of what drives you would contribute to your sense of self. And interpersonally it would add a new dynamic for how people connect, judge, or what have you, than just what you do at work or even what your hobbies are.
Eureka, yet another fun self-concocted self-awareness reflection thinger! Less talk, more do. What would be some of the things on my true CV?
- making the credits of a film about cancer played at an independent film festival just for stopping in on a patient and having down to earth fun talk while playing connect four and other silly kids games, while volunteering on the oncology ward at Mott's Children Hospital - he ended up shooting a documentary about his experience. perhaps sticks out more in my mind since he passed away some months after I attended this screening :(
- every time I learn from and facilitate the privilege walk - the reactions of individuals who had an a-ha and hearing when its continued
- sitting down with someone at IPM06 who was clearly feeling out and just smiling and being normal and that person thanking me, letting me know they appreciated it and felt more confident and "in" at end of conf. yay inclusiveness (specific instance, not a general one)
- finding out a friend of mine was in the midst of a year or nomading and had no camera, heading straight to best buy and buying one, and shipping it to her under the pretense that she thought and still thinks it was an old camera one of my mom's church friends didn't need (yay that she doesn't know my blog site, hehe)
Jes. That would be part of it. Thinking as a faci: how did it feel to write those things knowing I'd click "publish post" after? Well, quite awks. I had a lot of things in my mind but when I started typing I felt a bit shy about writing them out and careful about how I wrote them to make sure I didn't seem like a conceited self righteous freak of nature, because somehow being happy for being nice feels super bad, but being proud about increasing performance of an org is super ok.
Makes me think of the concept of "closeting". Of the ways that we can feel ashamed about parts of who we are and keep them in the dark. Are we closeting goodness?!? Jes, of course, it would be strange to go around telling people: I'm a good person! Look at me! LOOK! Seems to defeat the purpose of having done the nice deed. And even to walk around in your head humming "damn it feels good to be a gansta" and thinking: wowww, I am the shittttt. But I do sometimes even feel bad for even feeling happy about myself when I do something nice. Sounds deranged, but don't put it past me and my outrageous self critical guilt complex! So yes, I reckon I'll think a bit more about this and also will try to remember this question in my mind next time I'm talking to someone and feel compelled to say, "so what do you do?", or, "some weather we've got, eh?" :)
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